probably the most significant event that took place the past week is the release of our PW results, and it hasnt been a very pleasant event for me, at least.

seriously, i had almost forgotten that i took PW la, after such a long lag time between the last time i saw my WR till last friday, it has been almost 4 months le ba. PW has long been left in my brain's recycle bin since last yr, and it sounded strange when my frend actually told me that friday was PW day, then i suddenly realized, "O theres PW results awaiting to be known!"

there was no lesson mood at all from everyone in the class, and when mrs lee announced our cohort performance this yr, the whole school applauded and cheered, bcos we improved alot from last yr. last yr theres only 6 ppl who got A amongst the whole cohort, and this yr, 109 ppl got A. and last yr 75% of the cohort got ABC, this yr, 60% of the cohort got As and Bs, so is that some achievement worth celebrating?? we were all high on our morales, until we got into class, and until we received the stats from other JCs. just when we thought 15% A was good, other colleges are having 98% A, 87% A, and 75% As, just to mention a few, and seeing all my frends from other colleges getting As, put me in a dilemma of whether i should be happy for them? or sad for myself?

for my class, we did not do as well as we should do, and i can feel the sorrow of every single soul in that very classroom. and then popped out from my CT's mouth, "im really disappointed la...", i think it really made alot of ppl in the class even sadder. but it brought forth to me yet another phenomenon of life: perspectives. sometimes when we view things from our own perspectives, we come up with conclusions totally different from other ppl, simply because we had different amound of information regarding the issue, and we see things at different angles. when my CT feels disappoint, and when he said that," i think the results truly reflects the amount of effort put in by individuals...", i assume he feels that we have not done what we ought to do, and we have no put in enough effort to deserve an A. but from our point of view? those ppl who feel sad, they might feel that they've put in all their effort and the results was just unfair to them. whatever the truth might be, we will nvr know who is right and who is wrong, but the moral of the story is: always respect other ppl's opinions, even though it changed, so its time to forget about past grudges and grieves, and move on to the more impt might oppose yours, that will make this world a much more peaceful to live in. since the results are out, it cannot be challenges ahead. dwelling on the question of right and wrong will not bring the class anywhere further.

for sajc, i think our results were good already, its just that it wasnt good enough to set us atop other colleges. this problem of good and good enough is ever evident in today's competitive society, everywhere can be an invisible battleground. when we work hard for something, its no longer about working to improve urself, but working to win over others, we do not set our own targets anymore, others set them for us, and we're forever trapped in this spiral of working to the top and being overtaken, if u know what i mean. i think what mr phang said to me was very true, what results we get for alvls is not impt, whats more impt is how others did compared to u, u can still be the top student with BCD if other ppl are all getting S and Us...lol this is very troubling, bcos arent exams suspose to test how good we are, and not whether we are good enough? the present gauge of standard uses a bell curve to decide our grades, and u can get A even though u scored only 50%, bcos others are all failing. this means our grades does not truly reflect how good we are, but how good we are compared to ppl of our age, but in this society, we're not only interacting with ppl of our age, what about the others? its very much about luck these days, what subj u take, who u taking it with, and not that much about how good u really are, and whether u really score 70% or above. furthermore, this society and this system we have just doesnt allow ppl to be equal, the good must be the minority on the bell curve, even though everyone scores 90% and above, there is bond to be differentiation in the grade awarded, studying for me for the past years hasnt been to truly increase my knowledge, but to tackle exams, and win over others, and this feeling isnt good.

so even though sajc's PW result is still rocking the bottom, it doesnt mean we're not good, its just that others are better, and maybe a better system? i just hope all the saints out there who are still emoing over our PW results will get through it soon and get a grip, the journey ahead will be even tougher, but i believe all of us will get through it as long as we have the right mentality. looking on the bright side, SAJC is really improving, from last yr to this yr, and i hope this batch of ours will have a breakthrough, i can see the efforts put in by the school authorities to improve our results, and i can see that most ppl around me are all geared up. that leaves me out of the norm...haha its time for me to pack up and set on this journey together with the rest, and may we meet in front of the gates of success.

thank you for bearing with me until this point=D haha whether u are on the same boat as me or not, i wish for all the best in whatever challenges that lies ahead of you.