first week of term 4 just past me by, like a breeze so light, too light for me to even sense its depature, but as i stand stagnant at the same spot i was three mths ago, others have already climbed way beyond the limit of my vision, and i could only dwell on the fact of who am i: slack, lazy and no self-discipline. and what i feared most happened: im SICK! again! im losing too much sleep i guess, like merely 1.5 hours to 2 h everyday...it's killing me

the week didnt start off quite nicely for me. Firstly its rained all morning on monday, so i missed my beloved PE and bball sessions, and i had no lessons till 12.30! so i was practically consumed with boredom. spent the first part of the morning slacking at the gallery while helping GJ work out the variable n, but we didnt manage to succed after all. i was so shocked at the way my class is studying, who group using the free morning to mug in the library, and they mugged thru the whole week! while im here blogging...im already way behind everybody, i sincerely hope our class will value-add for promos and become one of the top class. that afternoon i had no randy lesson too, i we dismissed at 2.30...forgot if i got any program that afternoon, so i think i went home to slack, as always...

tuesday got abit luck, it rained madly on my way to school, and i was without an umbrella, but managed to long bang belinda's car to school with pakata, rain stopped as soon as PE started, but PE was so boring that day, we didnt get to play any bball, instead we play friendly with A7, and trashed them upside down! ok i shalll not try to sound so cocky...lol but up till now the only classes we lost to are S13 and S24 i think, for captain's ball, i definitely look forward to a rematch, we will win this time! S-paper is quite a challenge to shawn right now, he's working on it everyday i hope, but i do hope he will eventually get an A. dismissed at 2.30 after H1 lesson, shawn has geog so i left home with GJ.

wednesday i woke up at 7.15am...so obviusly i am late for school, so i took my time to wash up and eat, and reached school at 8.05am liddat, the sidegate was closed liao and im not suspose to be able to enter the school until 12.30, but that day my lesson ends at 12.30, meaning i will have to miss all my lessons, thus i climbed in to school thru the side gate fences, lucky no one caught me in actions except those members of the public hahaz. had some stupid survey that afternoon and moon cake festival rehearsal in the afternoon, so stayed back to study in the library awhile then went to busy myself. mooncake festival is soo screwed up, whole of CRC only me and chuchu were present, and the ppl who planned the activities were MIA, and the hardcore members were not even involved, i do hopeful mr kwek can see who are the ones really commited in helping him with CRC, and choose the excos wisely.

wed night, or u can say thursday morning was hell. i lied on the bed at 2am, very very tired, and was trying to fall asleep, but strangely, the moment i enter the state of sleep, something wakes me up, and stops me from falling asleep, it seems like i am soo tired, but unable to fall aslp, this continue till 5am, while i fell aslp and woken up repeatly...then i rmb i stepped onto something i shouldnt have outside school another day, so in my semi-concious state of mind, i started to pray and apologize, miraculously, as soon as i did that, i fell aslp immediately. strange. so thursday i was super tired due to 1 hour of sleep, but it was a long day for me, i really had the urge to slack off and sleep during some lectures, but i didnt! surprisingly,i perservered thru the whole day, tutorials lectures consultations...but i was damned pissed with the photocopy lady, i was eagerly trying to get a copy of the maths revision solutions for the test on friday, but she just wouldnt give it to me, she kept insisting i need to get my maths rep to collect foe the whole class, so inflexible...inefficiency- problem of a monopoly market. lucky chuchu brought it with her so i photocopied from her, if not my maths test is GG. o yea thursday was also loan's bday, so we took some pictures during GP



got a shock of my life on thursday night/ friday morning. cos i apparently fell aslp at 8pm on thursday, and when i woke up, everything was dark around me and i thought i slept until morning without studying for maths test! but luckyily the clock showed 12am. so there i went, studying maths from scratch until 4.30am, then b4 i barely closed my eyes, the day broke and my alarm sounded. so i got barely 1h of sleep. but to my surprise, i survived the whole day with 1 hour of sleep, assembly test lectures and tutorials! friday afternoon i also went to lucas to see dentist, after that we met pakata at queensway shopping centre to looka t our team jacket, but the design wasnt that attractive so we decided to put it off till new designs appear. even though we didnt get the jacket, it wasnt a wasted trip cos i did alot of catching up with lucas, my double partner, its been a long time since we chatted and got to know each other's juicy secrets! hahaz!

but one week of no sleep didnt come without a price, my throat started to itch on friday and now i totally lost my voice again, and im coughing so much i think im gng to cough out my lungs soon, i slept from 8pm on friday till 12am on saturday, thats like 16hours? but i still felt giddy cos i got a mild fever, so after lunch i slept again, from 4 to 7, thus i apparently slept the whole day, but im not feeling much better after so much sleep, hopefully i'll recover tmr, if not i cannot MC on tuesday and wednesday liaoz...

im not in a right mind now to think, apparent im too giddy..and another reason is im having STM, this past week packed so many events that i cant remember what happened on which day...haiz im really losing track with my life. something i learnt during ME lesson: Life is always understood backwards. and thats sad, bcos we have to make mistakes b4 we learn what is correct, and we have to lose someone b4 we understand how impt they are.

today jasper called me with hongyou's phone to invite me to join xms student leader alumni board, or SLAB...lol reminds me of SLAP. ok what he told me is my junir SLs now are in dire states, and they are not up to standard, so SLAB is formed to prove assistance and training for the slb and excos, and to keep the standard of SLs high, jasper came up with this proposal. and of cos i agreed to join without second thought, as long as xinmin needs me, i will always be there to serve as long as my ability allows, cos i always believes i can nvr contribute back to my school enough to compare with how much xinmin has nurtured me. and its also painful to hear that SLB is facing the danger of collapsing, cos if it does, i had a part to play in it, i hadnt been a very good general secretary at all, i practically slacked thru it, and i still feel this regret till today. but i do not hope to see this SLAB thing being misunderstod by the juniors as a way seniors are using to control the SLB even when we're not xinmin students anymore, cos actually we do not have any power to interfere with xinmin stuff anymore, and by starting up SLAB we are making it so obvious that the present batch of SLs are not capable. and who sets the standard for SLs? are they not meeting the school's standard or OUR standard? i do think sometimes we seniors care for the board too much, to the extend that we always see juniors as not as capable as us, bcos of that we always intervene into their planning and decision, making them forever depending on us. this will result in a weakening board after every generation, bcos 4ever they will be consulting the seniors and when will they start thinking for themselves? i do think that the SLB should be left on its own to solve its own problems, and they should be the ones asking us for help, and not us trying to set up something to help them. the fact is SLB will not collapse in reality, and it has long collapsed in the minds of xinmin students, now its not about how to stop the board from collapsing, its about how to rebuild it. after coming to JC i learnt many new ways leaders can lead and how SLB can operate, and im definitely gng to share these with my beloved SLB back in xinmin, even though i see some negative externalities in SLAB, i still agrees with t to a larger extent and i will definitely play my part, and more impt i will make sure it doesnt go the wrong way, the way which i am fearing now. xinmin here i come!

ok to end off my post, im now lost for words, so i'll use lyrics to expressed my feelings right now, as usual, and at the end i wanna share this little game i played a few days ago, koped from hongyou's blog, its quite funny, so sayonara for now! work hard for promos ppl and may you see me in JC2 next year!



RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
一个人 - 蔡依琳
(whose that person? lol)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Cockney Girl - 王力宏
(i depend on my intuition and "feel" in relationships, so i have no preference...but cockney girls?? dun sound nice...too angmo lolx)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
永远的第一天 - 王力宏
(somehow...i hope we can start anew everyday, and let bygones be bygones)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
歌手与模特 - 放大同
(lol yea being a singer has been my dream, but only a dream...model??? erm can i? lolx)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
RUN 2008 - 信
(YAY!!! motto of all chinese worldwide! run to Beijing for the 2008 Olympics!!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
透视 - 罗志祥
(you think i can read ur thoughts? i do hope so but guessing has been my worst game)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Tell Me - 潘玮柏
(lol i dun even know how i think of them seriously)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
分开以后 - 唐禹哲
(i dun have to "think" about it anymore...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
欲望把眼前的地板铺满 - 张悬
(omg so long name, and which i dunno the meaning...lemmi think, nonono i definitely dun lust for him, im straight! haha)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
迷失表参道 - 张敬轩
(yea i dunno whats going on in her mind, 她是我最想解答的问号)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Just When I Needed You Most - 潘玮柏
(true...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
好想你 - 王力宏
(nononono why would i ever want to lose anyone and start missing them? but i dun mind becoming someone like wangleehom? haha)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Love Interlude - 放大同
(yay stop.relax.deep a deep breath.walk forth and let love enter our life! lol)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
王八蛋 - 宋俣川
(LOLOLOLOLOL! bastard! and its my version somemore! ...maybe they really think im a bastard...*cant stop LOLing*)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
你看得见钻石 - 欧得洋
(perfect! thats right man! i prefer to dance slow and the song is perfect, love is when you see the diamond in someone when nobody else can)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
其实幸福很简单 - 张栋梁
(does that mean i will die in peace? or i will only find peace after i die?)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
错了再错 - 张栋梁
(omg...so true, this year i've made so many mistakes that it seems that making mistake has became my hobby)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
不懂 - 林俊杰
(yea i fear not knowing stuff, but who dun? especially during exams haha)

i cant believe this, most of them really relevant to the truth about me...some really funny lol...like the one about how my parents think of me haha! but i think my itunes shuffle problem lor...cos no david tao songs hahax, maybe cos i played them too much liaoz.